how do I feel being away from family

"You lucky guy", that's what most of my freinds and colleages say knowing I am away from family for a long time now. Its been two months since I am away from my family. This is the longest duration in my 6 or 7 years to be marriage life. Life without family is for sure different. While I really miss them being away there are few things I liked abt that in the begning ...
( I am writing as though many are reading my blogs. Well, if you are reader out there in some remote world and in the same boat of living away from family for the first time then you can stay a bit and read through.)

My routine is off. I go to bed late, very late every night after a mid night cooking and netflix movie watch. How do body react to that ... you want to know, body treats with you a tight constipation!. jeesus christ..

I am home alone. I felt a a bit relaxed abt this in the begning. I can dress like I want.. (just need to make sure I pass the windows fast if curtains are up) or have an open restroom with laptop. That TV remote has no competition.. but after some time it sucks. This quietness becomes very less interesting.

On weekends its a very late out of bed and late out of sofa and out of home experience. I miss there my sweet heart wife's bed coffee. thanjvur degree coffee sometimes. I would say that's a million dollar worth now. You men out there, if your wife gives you a morning bed coffee say "Thank you very much dear" or "Thank you very much dear and by the way you look very beautiful today".

And main thing a man misses while wife away is that warm closeness and effect ion. Its the kissing, hugging,...men like me need this all the time to live good and calm. Though I miss it, I can be thank full for one reason. I started fantasizing and dreaming about my wife ...dreams like walking in the park with holding hands, two black images with a glaring moon... when is the last time a man fantasised or dreamed about his wife like that?


I know the separation firmly made me realize that family time does not keep me away from any rewards and does not stop me from making that big dream or plan I may have. Time well spend with family is precious.

May be every couple need a break to realize the how significant the significant other is.

Cant wait more to join my two sweeties, love you guys.

How to be arrogant...

I want to be arrogant. Life sucks a lot being a guy giving respect every one deserves. At least be a person to show that anger, irritation and do senseless yelling when needed.

If you are a person who wants to think and respond during a crisis this world is going to take you for granted. First shout, yell and kick some asses and then try to resolve crisis. At least that would give some satisfaction.. Based on the my research here are few point to be arrogant.

1. Think cheap of others
2. Have an air of superiority around you
3. Don't respect anyone
4. Make people come and meet you instead of you going and meeting
5. Make people run away from you
6. Make sarcastic statements.
7. Interrupt people while talking.. and make sense statements that you know everything

This is tough for me...

Bicycle Thieves

Bicycle thieves is one of the best classical movies I have seen. I wanted to watch this movie for a long time and don't know why I didn't watch this till now. Though I hate piracy I even got lucky once with an online website but there was no English subtitle. Italian is a nice language, but movie isn't interesting if you don't understand what people are talking. My thanks to Netflix; it was a great opportunity to see this movie.

The movie is about a man struggling to find a job during post depression of WW2 and gets one that needs a bicycle. His wife scratches for very few nice things they have at home and they both get thier bicycle back from pawn shop. Things look promising. He, his wife and little son are happy for this surprising new start. There is a new confidence in their life. But the tragedy is, it's very short lived. In day light, while on his first day work, his bicycle gets stolen. It happens right before his eyes and he is unable to chase and stop the young man fleeing with his bicycle. He knows what that bicycle means to him and how badly he needs this job. Movie gets into a journey of human feelings while he and his little son sets off to find his bicycle. Their eyes show the desperate feelings they have, the hope, the disappointment and determination to go every bit to find that bicycle. Movie also takes you to a real snap shot of Rome in 1949. We cannot imagine Rome with so many bicycles (is it still like this?). on the road like Chennai, only difference being men wearing suit, hat and shoes. The road side shops, crowd pushing into the bus and free lunch mass in the church gives a glimpse of people's life during that time. It's an experience to watch this movie fully shot outdoors. Finally the man makes a desperate attempt to steal a bicycle and gets caught and beaten up before his son. Realizing the huge mistake he had done, the man hold his son's hand and walks away from crowd slowly...movie ends here..not sure if they found their bicycle and how things went ahead. ...

Stolen bicycle is just an analogy. We all go through a turmoil of events in our life and face it along with our family. We don't have time to rehearse and train our emotions at that time. We turn into what jumps out of us. But a composed and calm thought is always possible when there is a loving wife and little girl to hold your hands at all the time.

Ok..no sentiments here and that last line is not to impress my wife. That emotion came just off me.

Its worth watching this movie anytime

Movie did kindle my bicycle days memory. My elder brother, now a doctor settled in UK, used to take me in his bicycle during school days. We three, my brother, sister and I went to the same school. For 4-5 years I went to the school sitting in the back carrier with legs folded on the sliding rod, it was fun (Hello Kumana anna- do you remember that cycle?). Jabaraj annan, a cousin of mine taught cycle for me and few of my cousins of my age. We used to rent cycles @ 50 paise and for 30 mins. Not sure why Jabaraj annan took this initiative but its a great thing he did and we all need to thank him. I dont remember when but at some point my sister's cycle was given to me. I took that to Pazhani Methi Vandi Nilayam and gave it a fresh and shiny look. It didn't have the front bar and was easy to ride. This shop was right opposite to "Pugazhenthi Fancy Store" a business my father ran for a very short time. I kept watching my first cycle getting ready in the shop from my fancy store for three days. After this I got a new Hero Ranger bike which I had till school and eventually switched over to real bike on my own. There are many memorable cycle trips along with friends, including regular rides with my friends on the way to back to home from school and or from tuition class. Many at times it was a pleasure to not to ride but stroll the cycle slowly and walk along with friends, espeically with my school girl friends.

May be when I am in India for vacation, I will take a cycle and go around Thiruvanmiyur and go down my memory lane much more (along with million things I have planned). Do anyone want to join?

Pongalo! Pongal!

Praiyanagal Vendum...

Manasaatchi...

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